I hope you all are well and keeping positive. I hope you enjoyed the previous post which was posted. This counts as this is the second blog post of 2020.
I thought I’d start off the blog post with giving a mention to my late Nan, Miss Grandma K as it was her birthday at the start of this month in March. Sending my love to her.
Mental health is still carrying on from this month in regards to what has happened to Caroline Flack. It’s still so raw even just typing about it and the whole subject. Once again, I hope this is a reminder to let everyone know that you can’t go through having negative thoughts because it can destroy someone and their life.
On the 14th of March, I went out to my work do. This was my first first ever event of the year. I remember saying last year that 2020 will be the year where I’ll attend more events and have a social life despite not making much of an effort in the past so it’s like this time for me to have fun for once and just live life. Yeah, I went and saw my work colleagues. At first, I was so so nervous about attending. I even had a moment before entering. Everyone was so surprised when I turned up and I just thought “you know, why not? I think I’m going to have a good time” and I did. I still mean this to this day that I genuinely had such a good time going out and being able to celebrate. I smiled so much. I still remember that night. An amazing night to celebrate 25 years of my workplace.
Since my work event, this happens…..
Absolutely quiet. Not a single second. I don’t think either of us have ever experienced well especially for me since moving to MK way back in 2005. I’ve been there for 15 years this November. At first it was so weird that the city centre was quiet and nobody was seen. This is all due to the lockdown. Whilst taking that video, it was so sad to see because normally it would be so busy and filled with people and businesses being open. Never in my lifetime I have ever seen this. Especially where we are right now by currently staying at home but I keep saying to myself that I won’t talk much about Covid-19. That’s my aim I’m bringing into this blog so I’ll try my best not to talk about it as much. Hehehe. Despite it already cancelling my plans to go and see Alicia Keys in June as it’s been postponed for a later date in the year which I wasn’t very happy about.
On to the positive, I have learned how to cook and make: tomato soup, chilli con carne, fajitas and bread with garlic butter. Also in my spare time, I have been singing and doing covers on YouTube. As well as singing, I have been watching 90 Day Fiancé and as well as Real Housewives of Beverly Hills. This is my first time actually watching the show as I have been watching Atlanta and Potomac over the years especially as it’s BH’s tenth season so I thought why not especially as I currently have so much free time since the 1st of May after volunteering at my work to help out during these unpredicted scary times. Speaking of Housewives, I do like to watch it so that’s another thing you all now know about me. I’m now at the point where I can just watch what I want to watch without feeling any form of judgement about that. It’s better to be different than just the same.
On the 15th of May, it was my late Nan’s birthday. This was her first birthday since she passed away back on the 3rd of October and was laid to rest on the 11th of November. For those of you who don’t know, I last saw my Nan in hospital and this is my Mum’s mum. She passed away a few days after. If you want to read my tribute to her, I’ll leave you a link at the end of this blog post. This was her first birthday since she passed and I have been going on walks since being put on furlough. It was sad and bittersweet even just being reminded knowing that she’s not here to celebrate and it still gets to me even just typing it right now. She would have been 77. One of my Uncles took it so hard so it’s still hard on all of us as a family. I went for a walk and it really gathered me together to keep me from being emotional as everyone knows. I am an emotional person and that’s ok. That’s because I care. None of you should never explain yourselves to people and a world who doesn’t deserve your originality. I found that walks are really good for me and my mental health and as well as having a peace of mind by not being overwhelmed by what’s currently happening right now in this world. We will get through this together. We will get through this trial together. Just remember this is a trial. We will have that normality back. Especially for us who have mental health. Every single person has mental health. We have all experienced this in some point of our lives and we still experience them to this day. It’s ok. It’s ok to be human and to have feelings especially having days where you don’t want to make an effort or just feel lazy.
I remember when I was growing up, I would be so excited whenever my Mum or my Dad came back from being out whenever me and my siblings would be in the house by ourselves. That feeling of hearing the key on the door as it’s about to open. You would know that you will feel safe knowing that they are there.
I went to have my first lockdown haircut and it felt so nice because I remember feeling so overwhelmed knowing that I can’t get my haircut done knowing that the barbers are currently closed. It just feels fabulous. Thank you to my Aunt who has done me the biggest favour. If she reads this, she knows who she is. Thank you Aunty. Here’s the finishing result.
I hope you all love and like. I couldn’t even tell you how much I was grateful for having my hair done during lockdown. Hehehehehe. In everything, you have to be thankful and grateful.
As we come to the end of the post, looking what has happened before lockdown and on how life was before everything changed. It’s really important during these times to reach out and speak to people and as well as that, this is the time to be productive and to think outside of the box. Think of what is happening as like a reset button. Who knew I would also learn cooking skills especially with making my own celery juice.
Celery juice is good for you.
I’ll see you all. Until the next post….
Here’s the links of those of you who are new to my blog and want to know about my late Nan… There’s two posts. It’s best to start with the August, September and October post.